You’ll be okay. This too shall pass and you will experience new and better things. I pray that you will, ultimately, find your place in front of Christ as He says you did well. I pray you have that to look forward to. If you don’t, that’s your decision, but you have people who love you. There will always be people who love you no matter what mood you’re in, or how you’ve treated them. Focus on your goals and achieve them. Focus on what to cook for dinner and indulge your sweet tooth. You’re going to be okay. Maybe not today, maybe not tomorrow, but you will be okay.
I am praising the Lord this morning. As I was doing my hair and putting on some mascara, He said, “You can do anything with Me. You can do that mermaid tail afghan, you can teach these kids well, and anything you set your mind to.” What a great way to start the day! PTL!!! 💕
She listens when necessary and gives her two cents when needed. Let me tell you, that’s needed often in regard of me. I am so thankful for her wisdom and encouragement. She has brought me up to be strong and independent. I am thankful!
LORD, you are wonderful! Thank you for the opportunity for renewed mercies this morning, and this beautiful view. Thank you that I can walk out to water the horses. Thank you that I am able to take care of myself and my animals. Thank you that I am able to have talks with my mother in the mornings. Many young people want out as fast as they can. I was that person once, but I’ve realized how fortunate I am to spend a few extra years with my parents. They are molding me, alongside You, into the woman I’m intended to become. Thank you!
I love this place. I always have, but I love it 1000x more than I did at 7 years old. No longer do I have to beg my parents to up and move 100 miles from where I grew up, because they have. I followed them, too. No longer do I have to dream about the weekend, the great escape, the time with Jesus in the great wide open. I have it now. If I were still residing in Irving, I’d be content, somewhat happy, working away and barely making my rent. I’d be okay. Out here, though… Out here I feel alive. Out here I feel free. Out here I feel home. Growing up, I called this place my second home. Now, I am able to call it home, but is it really? No. My home is in the heart of Jesus. My home is not of this world. I am elated, I am joyous, and I am humbled to be able to call this place my home for the time being. I have grown, I have learned, I have worked hard, and I have appreciated more out here than I have in my previous life.
Living with Callie is full of wet kisses, snuggles, and a lot of panting. She’s just always been that way. However, she has diabetes, and that makes life a little bit difficult. Recently, her glucose has stayed low.
So thankful for these two things and that I am able to care for my girl. She’s expensive but so worth it. This blood monitor kit is so helpful because she can’t tell me when she’s low or high. Isn’t it cute?! Also, I log her levels so that the vet can know, and I can keep track of any abnormalities. This scare has made me realize, Callie is the type who needs her blood checked daily. I did that in the beginning then stopped because I didn’t change her rations. However, I believe she has lost more weight. A vet visit on Saturday will make things clearer for both of us. Thanks for all of those who thought about her. She’s doing fine, for now, thanks to Millsap Vet. Even though I’m not their customer yet, they helped immensely. Now I have a better idea of how diabetes/insulin/food works together. PTL! ❤️
If it is God’s will, one day, I will have children. I’m thankful for this time as a teacher, and a substitute teacher, to learn myself. I’m able to influence these kids in a positive way. I’m able to understand what I should and shouldn’t do, all before having my own. It scares me for so many reasons, but then, I think about my mom. She endured excruciating pains because her body was telling her to get me out. The doctors said not to push, then rushed her into emergency surgery. Not only an unbearable amount of physical pain but emotional pain is something she endured for so long- probably still does. Having the doctors tell you that your baby will die and that you can’t hold her; offer her your love to keep her strong. I can’t even imagine what that feels like and I hate that my parents had to endure it all. At the same time, though, I’m thankful they did. I’m thankful that they have such a powerful story to share, to spread God’s purpose, love, and grace. I’m thankful that I came from such a beginning that has helped me remember the small things in life and cherish my parents that much more. I’m thankful I am a fully functioning adult, despite all the warnings. I’m thankful. I know I have a purpose. What that is, exactly, I’m still not sure. I will use each day to spread love and knowledge to the best of my ability. When I am blessed with my own children, I’ll still have no clue what I’m doing, but I’ll have a better idea. Being surrounded by kids each day is such a wonderful experience.
It’s allergy season. I took some medicine the other day and I went about the rest of my day without problems. However, a couple of days later, the same dosage knocked me out for two hours. It makes me wonder…