I choose to look to my Lord for guidance and purpose. There’s no answers in other people or the media when you ask, “What is my purpose?” They may be able to see some of your strengths and weaknesses. They may be able to steer you in the right direction, but only God can truly answer that. Our ultimate purpose is to bring others to Christ, but what gifts has He given you to help make that happen? Embrace them and use them. Please, do not sit in sorrow, comparing yourselves to others. There is no comparison! You are vastly different from those around you, because there is no one else quite like you. The Lord made you with a mission in mind, and you are the only being who can fulfill that specific purpose. Love yourself and let Him love you. I am so proud to say that I do.
Unfortunately, I couldn’t find the most recent photo of us together. This is one I took while I still could visit frequently and lived close. My Grani meant a lot to me, but not so much for the way she treated me. Don’t take that wrong, she was amazing. She loved me and I loved my time with her. It is the legacy she left engraved in my mother’s heart is what made me love her even more. I am named after her. Her name was Rubylu and my name is Danae Lu. I love that I am named after such a kind spirit with such strong determination. She was there for my mom in so many ways, that only she can explain in detail. She taught her so much about being a soft place for me to land, with a stern push forward. She was there for my mother during her difficulties bearing me. There’s so many things my mom could elaborate on that is not my place, but know that she was so much to my mom, and she affected my life by being such an influence to my mother. Grani, I love you, you know that. I’ll never forget your smile when I would visit and talk about my current events- whether you understood it all or not. I know I will see you again. Hug Jesus for me in the mean time.
As I do most days, after feeding this afternoon, I took pictures with my mule. His name is Jasper. When I went back to look at these pictures on my phone, I thought, “He’s the only boy I need in my life.” Then, as they always do, an entire slew of thoughts came into my head. “No, you also need Denton. Wait… You also need his dad, your brother. Oh and your own dad. Your cousins are pretty cool, too.” I realized that, even though, I’ve been hurt time and again by friends and people I really cared about, I don’t need to make a habit of closing my heart off. I need to open it up to my family. I tend to keep to myself and not express my true emotions. I cry myself to sleep while Callie wonders what’s wrong. Bottling things up isn’t healthy. I’m a talkative person and I’ll have a great time with my family, but my true feelings only come out when I’m at my wit’s end. I’m so stressed in so many ways, but I’m trying to focus on what really matters. Leaving this world with a legacy of reflecting God’s love is what’s important. How am I going to do that locked up in my own little world, emotionally? I need to take every decision I’ve made to this point and use them. I need to open myself up, when I’m ready, to allow the Lord to enlighten others with what I’ve gone through. Today, I am deciding to be powerful and own the gifts I have, the choices I’ve learned from, the choices I’ve been blessed through, and to love despite the world telling me not to.
Also, here’s my adorable mule.
To love the constant change in this world. Facebook formed as a way to keep up with old friends. At least, that’s how I used it. It’s very difficult to love it with all the hate and filth that is present. Disgusting fake profiles continue to pop up as “people you may know”. I know these people not, thank you very much! I continue to use it as a way to market my crafts, and try to spread love and hope in the process. Today, I posted this image.
It is such a simple reminder that God hates sin, not the sinner. He loves us all despite of our short comings. He LOVES you ardently, so show yourself some love today. Look in the mirror and tell yourself that you are amazing, you are going to do great things, and there is no one else quite like you! 😊
This is a phrase that commonly leaves my mouth. It’s a weird way of excusing myself for my lack of physical ability. I’m constantly apologizing to others and yelling at my body inside my head. Why can’t it just cooperate with what my brain tells it to do? I was moving some fencing and one of my hip flexors screamed in agony. I immediately thought, “Oh great, another ache to endure today.” Just following that thought, however, I started to recite some blessings and things I’m thankful for. I’m thankful for the things I CAN do.
Things I can do:
- walk without having to rest
- get myself out of bed
- carry heavy things. Picking them up is a different story.
- Sing as loudly as possible
- dance like a lunatic
- give a listening ear, or a shoulder to cry on
- use a shovel
- ride my mule
- drive a car
- praise the Lord
- capture beautiful images
- play music
- spend time with my niece and nephew
- enjoy a movie
notice that not all these things are physical. That’s because not everything we do that’s beneficial to ourselves, or others is based on physicality. We strive to look a certain way and find a mate that looks a certain way. We need to look inward at their heart. If they are selfish and ugly towards people, they’re ugly. That’s that. No matter how handsome or pretty they may be on the outside.
These two adorable kiddos are my niece and nephew. Gracie is 6 and Denton is 18 months. He’ll be two in May, and I cannot believe it! I remember the day he was born like it was last week! :)
Siblings fight and have competitive rivalries, pull each other’s hair, get on each other’s nerves but… not these two. From the moment Gracie found out she was having a little brother, she has completely embraced him. She is the most loving, generous, and helpful little girl. If Denton is getting in her space, or trying to get her toy she gently says, “No, Bubba. Go get your train.” or any other suggestion that comes to her mind. She allows him to play with her toys, as well, but a girl’s gotta glam up her Monster High dolls every now and then. I am so thankful for their bond, and I pray it continues.
This session was a quick one due to the muggy and cold day. We all set this bench on the edge of the pasture in hopes that the horses would join us. Unfortunately, they didn’t but the light was wonderful! The sun peeked through the clouds to my left. It was a great balance. The kids weren’t too happy about being outside and not able to play at that time, but we were able to capture some smiles and silliness. I stopped down to 2.0 and exposed evenly. In post, I simply increased the contrast by 5 and that was that! These kids don’t require very much touch up. :) I may be biased…
People come in and out of our lives for a reason: to teach us a lesson, or to teach us our worth. Many people look back on past relationships and friendships thinking, “What was I thinking?“. We’ve all been there, at least, once and I’m here to tell you to look back on that time of your life with a silver lining. If it was an extremely difficult place to be, and you’re no longer there, rejoice! If you’re stronger for it, rejoice! If you learned a lesson from it, and know where to go from here, rejoice! If you feel like you wasted your time, but now know your worth, rejoice! If you were friends with someone who made you unhappy, pray for them, and rejoice! You are no longer where you were, and have so much to look forward to. Pray that you are on God’s path for your life and move forward. He wants far greater for you than anything you have conjured up for yourself. Allow Him to lead the way. ❤️
can be beneficial or detrimental. I am slowly but surely straying away from Facebook and Instagram. I don’t want to be nosy about what others are doing without contacting them directly. I would, much rather, have people ask me to my face than look o Facebook. I’m busy. I read, I craft, I work, and I do my best to help the students I tutor, and teach piano. I love my life and am thankful for all those I can live life with. I’m happy, and that’s all that needs to be said.
Several people have “joked” about handling Callie’s diabetes. They say it would be a lot less expensive if something else were done. I won’t mention what they said, because I don’t even want to think about it. That’s why I put quotations around joked. It’s not a joke. She’s a living, breathing life that The Lord placed into my life for companionship. Would “just a dog” wrap her arms around me at night? Would “just a dog” grab me with her front legs and beg me not to go? Would “just a dog” love me no matter what I do, mistakes I make, or where I am in life? No. She’s a special dog and very dear to my heart. She has taught me to grow up, take responsibility for someone other than myself, and love without fail. There have been times that I have felt so down trodden and hopeless, but that sweet face greets me with a smile. She licks me endlessly and says hello with her eyes. This dog is no ordinary dog, she is mine, and I am hers. We have a companionship I have never experienced in my life, and I am so grateful for it. She’s my furry little daughter and I am so glad for that.